Lane
Well-Known Member
The system I use to build my site, somehow crashed and now I can not update my website and have to build it over again if I ever plan on updating it. *Enter a long chain of foul language right here. :x :x :x *
My site still functions wonderfully, but I can no longer update and publish it. It took me three years to finally develop the signature look and feel.
So. After about two weeks of cussing and hitting my computer desk, I think I have to go and rebuild. I'm seen some great builder sites out there, as I have to rebuild FAST and get things going in one day if I change my site. But I want it to still look original. *whine*
And it's too [email protected] hot. Tooooooo hot... I'm trying to quit smoking (I only smoke outside, not in my home) So the heat is really helping with that one...but it makes me angry.
Also trying to lose weight and it is no fun. At all. The more weight I lose, the worse my skin looks. After I had my son, I weighed 265, took three yrs to get down to 165, then jumped back up to 180. However, I carry my weight very very well. But apparently, if you weigh over 135 you are fat and shouldn't wear cute dresses because well, you are too fat.
I hate people.
I have actually had people, my friends, tell me "You really make your love handles and "baby Belly" work in those clothes..." "Your clothes are too tight, but if you feel ok wearing that..."
I have a very supportive husband. VERY. He loves curves and doesn't care what I wear as long as I feel good in it. Some days I feel good in a skirt and tub top...even though I have excess skin, cellulite, stretch marks, blemishes... I can see younger girls and women looking at me disapprovingly, and I want to yell " I earned these marks! These are my battle wounds! See these kids?? Yeah they were worth it!" And then of course I HATE HATE HATE it when people say "You get to be fat! You had kids!" NO! :x The point is, I'm NOT fat. I use to be over weight, but I am comfy now...so back off....
WHY are people so intimidated by self confidence?
Blah blah blah. I need a nap... Or maybe some wine...
My site still functions wonderfully, but I can no longer update and publish it. It took me three years to finally develop the signature look and feel.
So. After about two weeks of cussing and hitting my computer desk, I think I have to go and rebuild. I'm seen some great builder sites out there, as I have to rebuild FAST and get things going in one day if I change my site. But I want it to still look original. *whine*
And it's too [email protected] hot. Tooooooo hot... I'm trying to quit smoking (I only smoke outside, not in my home) So the heat is really helping with that one...but it makes me angry.
Also trying to lose weight and it is no fun. At all. The more weight I lose, the worse my skin looks. After I had my son, I weighed 265, took three yrs to get down to 165, then jumped back up to 180. However, I carry my weight very very well. But apparently, if you weigh over 135 you are fat and shouldn't wear cute dresses because well, you are too fat.
I hate people.
I have actually had people, my friends, tell me "You really make your love handles and "baby Belly" work in those clothes..." "Your clothes are too tight, but if you feel ok wearing that..."
I have a very supportive husband. VERY. He loves curves and doesn't care what I wear as long as I feel good in it. Some days I feel good in a skirt and tub top...even though I have excess skin, cellulite, stretch marks, blemishes... I can see younger girls and women looking at me disapprovingly, and I want to yell " I earned these marks! These are my battle wounds! See these kids?? Yeah they were worth it!" And then of course I HATE HATE HATE it when people say "You get to be fat! You had kids!" NO! :x The point is, I'm NOT fat. I use to be over weight, but I am comfy now...so back off....
WHY are people so intimidated by self confidence?
Blah blah blah. I need a nap... Or maybe some wine...
.
Way too much emphasis placed on outside "looks" and not the inner beauty a person possesses. 
