Seems like it has been forever since I've been on here, and that probably won't get much better lol. So much has happened over the past couple of months. I bought a new house, so we moved, and I worked a bunch fixing up both my old and new houses. I wish the old one would sell, so I could just be done with it. Then I started job searching. My husband decided towards the end of last year that I shouldn't be a stay at home mom anymore. I think he resented it, maybe he didn't think I was doing enough for our family taking care of our twin toddlers...but I digress. So I've been searching and interviewing, and working as a receptionist for our family business. I mostly like doing that. There is a lot of flexibility in it, especially with my kids new to daycare, and sick a lot. Well, today I'm getting my offer for a job. I should be thrilled. It's in my field, it pays well enough. I'm torn though. So, I do want the job, that is I want to try it out, and I think I could like the work (it would separate me from working under my husband's supervision, which I think would be good for us). I already hate not seeing my kids though at the point I am now, and this new job would only make it worse. Trying it out isn't even really an option according to the contract I have with my job recruiter. He said something about a one year contract (a "one year sincerity pledge")...and I don't even really understand what it entails. If I end up liking the work, I'm fine staying indefinitely really...and, in general, I'm a fiercely loyal person. I guess I'm weird though, because now this language is making me feel trapped and I'm not even sure what to do... Anyway, sorry for the rant. No one in my life has time to go through the details with me, so here I am.