I want to cry. I've blown so much money trying to make my own soap and all I end up with is a watery and milky dark yellow like fluid. I want to make clear shower gel like body wash. When I use my immersion blender for 15 minutes like the recipe says, I have a chunky mashed potatoes like substance, and then I stir it every 20 minutes, and end up with a yellow paste. The distilled water gets poured over it, I mix it again, and I still do not have a clear soap and it forms layers. I'm ready to give up. Please help!